I’m sure some guys with big ol balls just make up their mind and jump into it. Ya, not me. I guess what got me going was situational. I started to travel for work. But that didn’t really get me going having sex with guy. It was more like it got me comfortable with the idea. Like that’s when I went to video booths. Would never do that around my house. But on the road it was cool. And I kinda got myself in situations that were gay. Like I went to a gay gym. Didn’t do anything there but it opened the possibilities. You guys gotta understand that it wasn’t just have sex with a guy that was intimidating, it was BEING AROUND gay guys too. I never had any friends that were gay. It was out of my comfort zone. I even went to a gay bar. I thought when I went in I’d have 6 guys trying to strap me to the pool table. Wasn’t like that at all. It was really cool actually. Then I discovered Craig’s List. And ya I went on all the time to look at the pics. But also realized it wasn’t just me. There were other guys like me. I think that made it easier to deal with in a fucked up way. Seriously guy, I prob answered 20 ads on CL. Some with serious possibilities. But bailed every time. Chickenshit. Ok so next post I’ll tell you about getting my start. But what I want you to learn from this is it’s ok not to jump right in. Get your ass in mentally prepared for it. It’s pretty fuckin crazy when it happens and jumping in the pool isn’t for everyone.