I wanted to suck a dick. I been getting head since I was 15. I got head from guys. I wanted to give it a try. Maybe I felt like I needed to take one for the straight team. Maybe I felt like I owed the gay world something. Idk. It happened sorta unexpected. Went to a guys house to JO. I must have been giving off vibes cuz all of a sudden he said, “do you wanna suck it”. What was I supposed to say? Yes? No? Can I consult my accountant first? I think I said “I think so” but I remember him saying ‘why didn’t you just say so?’. Next thing I know I’m on my knees. It was nothing like I thought. I don’t know exactly what I thought it was gonna be. Porn-like I guess. But it wasn’t. Not good or bad. Just not what I expected. And no he didn’t cum in my mouth. I don’t think I had the skills to get him there. But it was fun and it was a bridge I guess I needed to cross. So the message here is we as curious guys get our experience from what we see on gay porn. Reality isn’t always like that. So don’t get nervous or have expectations its gonna be like what you saw on Xvideos. But if you really wanna try stuff with guys, at some point you gotta man up and get on your knees.