So I been chatting with a long time reader about the idea of an escort. He thinks I should hire a dude, tell him what I've done, tell him what I want to do, tell him I'm chickenshit, and hire him to take charge of me and have 1 afternoon to do all the shit I always wanted to do but haven't. So I agree the idea has merit, and one of my fantasies is being controlled by a guy. But when I think about it it's like ok what am I gonna do, start an interview process? Have them fill out a job application? But there is a fascination with turning the wheel over to someone and saying, "ok bro, you drive". I've tried this with women. Women (at least the ones I been with) aren't comfortable taking charge. With me anyways. And I think I want that. I'm pretty sure I want that. But it all kinda comes back to - am I ready to take it in the ass? So to stick with the driving analogy, I'm in neutral.