Ok follow me on this. We talked alot about how beers are like th great enabler for curiosus guys to have sex with other guys. Totally get that. But I been drunk ALOT with buddies and naked with em too. But I don't think I ever seriously considered having sex with them. So why's that. I think it has to do with shame. Ya I know you don't like hearing it but I think it's true. We don't want anyone knowing we got these feelings. Sure as hell not anyone we know and see all the time. Prob why curious guys look for out of town action on business trips. No man I'm not proud of this. But we grow up thinking it's wrong. It's a source of ridicule. It's anti social. All that shit. I never in this blog really talked about personal feelings. Just a lot of dick, ass, and fantasy. But when it gets down to it I think curious guys want to but are held back cuz of the shame if we got caught. I'm sure this makes gay guys go "we're not ashamed". Ya man I know that and in a way I'm kinda envious of you. But it's not like I'm gonna tank my family cuz of these feelings I got. So that's a big reason why I don't like continue exploring arbitrarily.