Friday, September 16, 2011

So I been getting a lot of emails asking why I'm shutting er down. I probably gave a differnt reason each time lol. So I guess that means there's a lot of reasons. But over the past couple days I been thinking about it. So I got a deep thought.  Ready? When I started this blog I was pretty nieve about man to man stuff. I asked a lot of questions and make a lot of statements that pissed guys off and they got all over my shit and I kicked their asses in comments.  But over time I think I learned stuff. And maybe got more tolerant. Or at least stopped being an idiot. I think back in those days I was kinda the bad guy on a TV show that you love to hate. Edgy ya know? So in a way I think that this trip I been on has changed the tone of my blog to the point where now I'm kinda like every other blog out there. I once said that when guys look at my blog and go "oh...ya...the curious dude...whatever" it was time to pack it in.  That's kinda where I am. My favorite song is Boulevard Of Broken Dreams cuz that's kinda how I see myself as a blogger.  So next time you hear it check it out and think of the still-dumb-but-not-quite-as-ignorant blogger Scott lol.

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  1. Scott, it has been a fun ride with you. love your taste in photos, and do think your sense of humour comes out with your polls. i hope that you will find some solace with the questions you are living with, and dealing with better now.
    here's to a good life for you, and also to that you won't shut down your blog, just change it up to match your place in life now.
    davy

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  2. Well Scott, you are not done. You're just bored. Sex isn't always fireworks and excitement. Relationships are mine fields and you started to have one in a way with the men and women who found your efforts interesting enough to hook up with your blog.

    Now there is bored and then there is lazy. I believe you lapsed into the latter. Ever consider us men and women who like men might actually be interested in the point of view of a straight man who is bi curious in things other than cock ass and how the two sometimes meet with a hand a mouth or dark nether regions?

    If you have said all that you feel you are able to say on the subject of your life and your interests in the short time you've been blogging I would say it can't possibly be so. You might be done with the project in a way but don't think you have answered all the questions or touched on all the points of interest that can in fact be interesting.

    For instance, "what do you love about a woman and how is that different when you consider a man?"

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  3. "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

    I walk a lonely road
    The only one that I have ever known
    Don't know where it goes
    But it's only me, I walk alone

    I walk this empty street
    On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
    When the city sleeps
    And I'm the only one and I walk alone

    My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
    My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
    Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
    'til then I walk alone

    I'm walking down the line
    That divides me somewhere in my mind
    On the border line
    Of the edge and where I walk alone

    Read between the lines
    What's fucked up when everything's alright
    Check my vital signs
    To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

    My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
    My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
    Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
    'til then I walk alone

    I walk this empty street
    On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
    When the city sleeps
    And I'm the only one and I walk a...

    My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
    My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
    Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
    'til then I walk alone...

    Thanks buddy for letting us walk with you for a while. You'll never again be completely alone. Please remember that!

    cheers!

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  4. Scott,
    You have made a few comments over the years about conversations you have had with your wife and your mates about gay issues. You seem very diffident about discussing this stuff. You need to come to terms with this. You don't have to tell everybody that you suck cock, given the right situation, but you deserve it to your followers to be up front and supportive when the occasion arises. The next time you hear a gay put-down, respond with with wit and politeness, but stand up for what you now know to be true.

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  5. I can finally understand what your doing and can appreciate it now. Thanks.

    On a side note, you can always change the nature of your blog, go hog wild, fuck, get fucked, blow and get blown and tell us all about that experience. That way we can all live vicariously through your actions and never worry about catching any std of own own.

    On a more serious note, leave the blog available for others to find, and learn from what you have brought to the table here. You also never know if your going to find the right situation at some point in the future with another guy and have something new to learn.

    It's been fun following your adventures in this minefield of life, and getting to know guys on a different level than just the straight and narrow. Remember that my cock is always available if you need something to play with.

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  7. Scott,
    There is one thing that I am certain that you will be able to do in the future. If ever a kid comes to you and says, I'm gay, or I'm bi, You will have a much better understanding of what that kid is going through. You can easily and rightfully become an understanding defender.
    About your song. I have lost everyone that I have loved. I have often thought, what am I doing here. I could go into any neighborhood, any street and any town, and feel that I don't belong there. I even feel, that where I live, I don't belong. It's all an absence. People have asked me, don't you have a cell phone. I say to myself, there's no one left to call.
    I'm grateful that I have my studies. My studies are my friends, my company. That's where I like to go to.
    Take care,
    You have done a lot of good. Don't beat yourself up. Just remember, that every so often, and when you need one, someone is sending you a HUG!
    P.S. Like a nice itch, you will be missed.

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  8. Scott,
    I hope that you are not thinking of doing anything stupid.

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  9. Hey Guys,
    I would bet a beautiful pepperoni pizza, that the beautiful guy sitting in that beautiful bucket, waiting to be, is our boy, SCOTT. Damn, he is hot. That is the best picture yet!
    bj.

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  10. When I started this blog I was pretty nieve about man to man stuff.

    So are many of us.

    I asked a lot of questions and make a lot of statements that pissed guys off

    Didn’t piss all of us off.

    and they got all over my shit and I kicked their asses in comments.

    And we love those exchanges.

    But over time I think I learned stuff. And maybe got more tolerant. Or at least stopped being an idiot.

    Sorry, but you were never an idiot. Just curious like many of us.

    I think back in those days I was kinda the bad guy on a TV show that you love to hate. Edgy ya know? So in a way I think that this trip I been on has changed the tone of my blog to the point where now I'm kinda like every other blog out there.

    Not even possible.

    I once said that when guys look at my blog and go "oh...ya...the curious dude...whatever" it was time to pack it in. That's kinda where I am.

    I do understand that, but the percentages are still in your/our favor.

    Paul

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  11. SCott,

    We love you and will miss you. Please leave the blog up and stop by sometimes. Look after your best interests. Enjoy your wife and be a good father to your kids.

    DP

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  12. And there's the first "Boulevard of Broken Dreams"--from the 1930s movie "Moulin Rouge"--lyrics by Al Dubin:

    I walk along the street of sorrow
    The boulevard of broken dreams
    Where gigolo and gigolette
    Can take a kiss without regret
    So they forget their broken dreams

    You laugh tonight and cry tomorrow
    When you behold your shattered schemes
    Gigolo and gigolette
    Wake up to find their eyes are wet
    With tears that tell of broken dreams

    Here is where you'll always find me
    Always walking up and down
    But I left my soul behind me
    In an old cathedral town

    The joy that you find here you borrow
    You cannot keep it long it seems
    Gigolo and gigolette
    Still sing a song and dance along
    The boulevard of broken dreams

    Scott, you are not kinda like every other blog out there. This blog is still fresh and relevant. You have the ability--the gift--of being able to write provocative posts that prompt us readers to write equally provocative replies. Of the many blogs that cover the topics we have here, very few--if any--have the consistently articulate and meaningful conversations found here. It is not just you who has grown. The back and forth here broadens your readers' vision, maybe changing a few minds. You make us understand better what we are all about. And I don't just mean the frequent posters. I am sure the lurkers who rarely post or don't post at all find much that is worthwhile. If you want to quit because you think the blog is repeating itself, you are wrong. But if it's a matter of the blog taking up too much of your time, then cut back on the number of posts. A little bit of Scott is much better than no Scott at all.

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  13. Scott is that pic, on your "bucket" list...? lol..sorry buddy could not resist, I'll go back and read the post..and answer properly, or rugger will get me.

    SJ

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  14. tantalus,
    thx for posting the original lyrics. i'm 35 but when the perv mentioned the song, that's the song that came to mind...the original one. somehow i didn't think our beloved shithead would be familiar w/ lyrics from the 30's. but now i'm curious. which song were you referring to scottie?
    cheers!
    p.s. a blog has to serve the needs of the blogger. scott's not a social worker nor a non-profit organization. i know he has a lot of reasons to want to move on. i think it's wise not to slam the door closed completely. i'm glad he's doing this slowly so he can get the feedback from readers...especially those you don't comment often, if at all. i KNOW those comments mean a LOT to him. he may still be wrestling w/ whether to ride into the sunset or keep going. so go ahead and try to persuade him to stay. but, once he's made up his mind...please respect his decision. wish him godspeed. don't tell him he owes us anything because he doesn't owe us squat. don't tell him he still has issues to work thru and needs to continue the blog to work thru those issues. scott's no dummy...no matter how much he likes us to think he is. if he needs to move on...let him...in fact, help him. let him go.
    pax tibi fraters!

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  15. Scott,
    You will be missed, but thank you for having the balls to tell us the end is coming (cumming?). I always appreciate the warning. We readers get caught up in the lives and thinking of our bloggers and then suddenly they go silent and we are left to wonder: were they hit by a car? Were they caught by an angry spouse and hope she won't find the blog before the divorce is settled? Thanks for taking the time to remove those worries and good luck in the future.

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  16. Paul,

    You said it so well.



    Rugbysex,

    You too


    Scott,

    Do what you have to but know you will be in our minds for a LONG time.

    DP

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  17. When is it closing down?

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  18. Scott,
    Next time i will hear that song, i will of a great guy who had a marvelous blog at that everybody love. I am going to miss you so much my friend, you won't beleive it. But you know that i will keep in touch no matter what sexy man.

    Yves.

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  19. Scott,
    Is the only gay/bi man, that I have ever seen who created a blog like this one is. Most bi guys get it on with someone and get on with life, as gay guys do. Woman, meet guys and don't post a blog. Married men, meet women and don't post a blog. Scott, is dealing with issue! Hopefully, his blog has helped him. The one thing that I do know, his feelings for the other are not going to go away. That's not going to happen. He had mentioned, that when his last blog was closed down, he went on a sexual excursion. This blog, according to him, has been his outlet. I hope so. I wish him well and want him to know, that we who have been with him, will be with him, if and when he wants to post again.
    Take care, buddy. See you in the shower!

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  20. 'Boulevard of broken dreams' is a beautiful song. But Scott you're not alone here - you can see it.
    Kisses

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  21. Oh David you have alot to learn about Scott, I don't think singing it "Kisses", is going to help.

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  22. Rugby
    You said it so well! My thoughts exactly.

    Scott
    Thanks for easing into the "Goodbye." Through your blog, you have provided a window into the mind of a straight guy (albeit very curious!). It is so much more fun going to the gym now..

    Take care of the things in your life that are most important to you... You deserve all of it.

    Bruce (LA)

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  23. This is going to be an unpopular post, but here it goes.

    I don't get why all you guys are cheering on "Scott" or whoever it really is. If this guy is telling the truth, he's a married man with children that is cheating on his wife & family. He not only has violated the sanctitiy of his marriage, he's hiding the fact that he is secretly putting his family at risk by his behavior.
    Listen, if he's gay, I don't a fuck. Do whatever you want. But don't be a deuschbag and destroy the lives of your family. Find a way to end the marriage if you need to. But quit putting your family at risk just so you can get your rocks off.

    Me, I don't buy any of this. What "straight" guy has that much free time to create a gay blog, and can't share it with his family?

    I enjoy the pictures, but I'll find others once this site disappears.

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  24. anon 606. fuck u asshole. u dont fuckin get it. ya i hear what yor saying but u think its easy? fuckin dirtball! btw this is scott. google wonte let me sign in but u bet yor ass this is me u fuckin douch
    scott

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  25. Anonymous at 6:51, PM, please give us more credit than that, we can sniff a fake and a coward a mile away and thats you. YOU ARE NOT SCOTT.

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  26. IDK, Anon 758...anon at 651 sure spells like our Scott. It might be him...lol

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  27. and I am sure, faker, knows how Scott spells, wake up anonymous at 9:01pm, and spell the coffee..

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  28. FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,FAKER ALERT,

    Getting the message yet anonymous at 9:01 Pm, and your a dumb cluck for believing him, unless your the inmposter...

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  29. Damn gonna miss ya buddy. Im a gay man and have been all my life despite years of fighting it, dealing with it and finally accepting it and enjoying it. I went through all the bullshit shame attributed to years of cultural programming, never being able to talk about it to anyone and having to figure it out on my own. What a great forum this has been. I've had a few questions answered that I didnt know the answers to, even after all these years. If the thought of keeping it going is at all in your head, consider this as long as you have questions about it the opportunity for answers is here. Thanks again bud wish you best... peace

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  30. Man what a great hairy chest that's leads down to a nice "treasure trail" and then we know were that leads too.. SWEET....

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  31. Anon 6:51 aka "Scott". You're calling me the asshole & dirtbag? I'm not the one fucking around on my wife and lying to my kids.

    I never said anything was easy. I go through some of the same things you do, but I chose not to live a lie and get married.

    You need to make a choice and get over yourself. Someone needs to tell you this stuff, instead of all the kiss-ass guys in here feeding your ego.

    Be mad at me all you want, but I hope you realize the risks you're taking and how that can affect the people you love.

    You may not believe this, but I hope things work out well for you. I just don't believe people should deceive each other. And buddy, that's what you're doing.

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  32. hey asshole @ 12:21AM and previously,

    2 words: penis envy!

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  33. Thank you for being very insightful, I am relatively new to all this and I would like to wish you the best of luck in life and hope you come back soon.

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