Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Ever Wonder What Would Have Happened?

I know a lot of you guys had sexual encounters with guys at a pretty young age.  Some of it was ‘show me yours I’ll show you mine’.  Some of it was experimenting with blow jobs. Some if it was an innocent jack off with a friend.  Some of it was a lot farther.  I never really had a buddy who I experimented with.  First encounter I had was with a friend in college when we were hammered and it lasted like 5 min.  No cum.  Just two drunk horny assholes with too much testosterone.  So sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I tried sex with a guy at a young age.  Would it have satisfied my curiosity and I wouldn’t have these feelings I have now? Would it have turned me off completely? Would it have changed nothing? Or would it have given me reason to try it again. Or even want more. How much would it have changed who I am today?  Ok look – I wouldn’t change my life for anything.  I don’t know how I got lucky but I know I am and I wouldn’t change any choices I made (ok maybe I wouldn’t have nailed that monstrously fat chick in high school but that’s a whole nother story).  But it’s kinda crazy to think about what may have happened if I had the opportunity…or the balls.

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  1. Scott all very good questions, and honestly difficult to answer, about what path you would have taken.. I can almost say with certainty, it would not have turn you off completely,and a strong possibility you would have tried again, because we know that you have some "attraction" to the male species.. no not emotionally but you like looking at cock..and ahhh, a little more...

    I think you would have done what most guys in your situation would have done (myself included for many, many years) you would have buried it in your sub-consious, till some "event" could not let you bury it anymore.

    That's what I believe you are dealing with now, trying to catch up on "missed opportunities", and having some fun with men.

    No doubt you would not change your life for anything in the world, and you to juggle ah, too many balls, nothing wrong with that (I think) as long as you don't drop one of the balls...

    Maybe made no sense, and I am sure some dudes will let me know, but that's my intake on you Scotty boy....

    SJ

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  2. Satisfying your curiosity, you really think one encounter would satisfy your curiosity? hell, thirty encounters wouldn't do it. Maybe going through a slutty phase for more than a few months, where you fuck anything that comes along, that might satisfy your curiosity.

    I had an experience in college similar to yours in that another guy wanted me to fuck him. While I was curious at the time, that was something that was beyond what I was willing to do. It took time, experience, and the internet before I crossed the line. In fact I'm starting to think the internet has made me gay. (lol)

    am

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  3. I don’t think there’s any answer that someone can give that will tell you, with certainty, what would have happened to YOU. Everyone’s experience is different enough that there may not be a one size fits all answer. I do know one thing, though, and that’s before you start asking what’s worked for others, you need to figure out what YOU, Scott, want and need to be happy. I guarantee you that will not be the same thing that I need or Steve needs or Mary needs…. Have you ever really examined what, at the end of all this, you really want? If someone could wave a magic wand and you could have everything you want, what would your life look like? And can you live with the choices you’d need to make to have that happen?

    I don’t know if this is even practical for you but the time might have come for you to talk to someone who can help you sort all this out. Someone who has no agenda or opinion on what you SHOULD want but will help you get to the bottom of what YOU need to be happy. I suspect everyone here has an opinion on what you should do. I know what I’D like to see for you but I like and respect you enough to want what’s best for you…no matter what you decide that is. A trained professional can help you figure this stuff out.

    I suspect you want to keep the framework of your life just as it is. The trick then is to decide how you can make that happen or even if you can make that happen. If you try to bury the feelings will that cause more harm? Will you do silly, risky things at a weak moment? How much risk are you willing to take? And how can you find peace with your choices…. No one here can answer these questions, Scott. You’re the only one with the answers….. You have good friends here that will listen and support you but no one can give you the answers.
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  4. I think if you'd been fucked....and I mean FUCKED really well....by a really talented top, you might have come to appreciate gay sex more. I think it probably would have helped to cuff your wrists so you couldn't get yourself off until he felt you had earned the right to get some relief. In other words, when you were squirming and groaning and gasping and moaning and begging to cum - THEN he might stroke you off ever so slowly as he continued to pound away at your virginal hole. THEN I think you would have come to appreciate gay sex and come back for more.

    But that's just my opinion.

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  5. No idea where I would be in life if I had any guys around when I was hitting puberty. I know I would be a very different person, but I'm not sure that would've made me happy. I look at this post with similar questions, but I'm single and have more options than you. Love ya bro :)

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  6. Too many questions there Scotty!

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  7. First, I never [OK..maybe a couple of times] look back with regret because it is very unproductive. Best to take what you have or what you have been dealt and play with it. Look back only to learn what NOT to do next time, or what to do again...and again...and again.
    I won't bore you with the last 45 years of my life, so please trust me that you need to do what feels good, doesn't hurt anyone, and makes you a great person. In everything you do, every decision you make, ask yourself one question: "In 40 years, will anyone really care or even know what decision I am making here?"

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  8. I'll share something of my life's experience with you. As a young kid, maybe at 12 or 13, there was a guy who was 14. Maybe he was two years older than me, maybe a few plus months more. His dick was the first that I ever touched. He put my hand on it. He had his jeans on. It was in an elevator. Honestly, I didn't know what to do to it. At another time, we found a spot and wound up undressed. He was taller than me. He also had a nice body and was well hung. Over the summer months and into autumn, we just experimented by touching, then, it went to oral and masturbation. One night when springtime came about, we were out walking in a secluded area. He stepped off the road and I followed. We were standing talking and looking at the stars. He took my hand and put it on his very hard and very upright dick. I said, I don't want to do this anymore. He tried to talk me into it and I said, no. We left and headed home. As I look back and as you can see, I still remember that experience and saying no. I wish I had said, yes. it is the one time that I let it get away. At a later date we played some more. As the years went by and he went into the service. He came home on leave and we got together. The same thing happened when I went into the service. He got married to a beautiful girl. He fathered two kids. One night, when I was leaving school, he was at the entranceway. I hadn't seen him in a couple of years. We found a place and had sex. He and his family moved south. During the time that I didn't see him, I was playing with a very good looking friend of mine. We had great sessions. I was older and knew what to do and how to do it. Be assured, I never said, no I don't want to do that.
    I have often heard people say, missed opportunites. Looking back, that night I said, I don't want to do this anymore. Dumb. The feelings that you have are not going to go away. Not all people have at the same age the desire to have sex with someone of the same sex. Many guys get the feeling in their twenties. Sometimes, it's later and for others it is earlier. Just the other day, I read about a soccer or rugby player who was married for three years and came out to his wife and teammates. I think that there is a story about that player in Outsports.com
    In closing, if you had sex with a younger friend, would you want to do it now. I would say, yes. I'll say one thing, as a kid having sex with a friend. I never knew that I had such body heat. it was absolutely awesome. If he lived closer, I would do it again with him, easily.
    One other thing. There is what I call, hit and run sex. You meet someone and want to get off because you are horny. There is also the sex where it is a little more intimate and you want to do it again with that person. If that person pushes the right buttons, you'll want more. If you have had a sexual sensation with one guy, and he moves away, you will hope to have that same sexual sensation with someone else. You still remember that night at college. I bet if you could relive that night, it would be different. We should all applaud ourselves for our accomplishments. We should be kinder to ourselves.

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  9. I used to jack off with a few guys in my teens; even did some oral. They are all now married and, as far as I know, straight. I'm an out gay. Did teenage jacking make me gay? Did it make them straight? Of course not. But it helped me understand where my sexual interests really lay; and maybe it did the same for them.

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  10. NOTE TO READERS OF MORNING RAIN SHOWER: Blogger has struck again. Miracleman's wonderful blog has been pulled down. It was most likely due to their fucked up anti-spam algorithms. MM just wanted you to know what happened. Hopefully, it will be back up soon. Like Scott, he's getting help from Jeff @ "Google Blogger Closes Gay Blogs" which performs a great service.
    Cheers!

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    1. Thanks Ruggy Baby,
      Morning Rain Shower is up and running again.

      MM

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    2. thanks scott for graciously allowing me to inform folks about MRS. you are a scholar and a gentlemen. scholar? gentleman? uh..better strike that. lol. you're a helluva nic guy and there's no question about that!
      cheers!

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    3. I would like to think my whole life would have been different. I didn't try it with another guy until I was in my 30's and OMG I realized what I had been missing.

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  11. Scott,
    If I may make a suggestion. There has to be other guys like you who read your blog who are wearing shoes and or a jockstrap similiar to yours. . Why not ask them to open up and share their experiences with you. There were times in my life when I thought I was the only one. I've learned that there are many more like me.
    P.S I like the jockstrap insertions.

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  12. A very expressive picture, one where you could almost hear what they're saying, or wish they were saying! Love that the picture is black and white but the situation that's shown could be anything but...then what happens??
    Artful1

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  13. Ahhhhh, you get "sticky" fingers???? You spit the goo out in the sink? I don't know you tell us Artful 1, what you think?

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  14. I had many desires from about 12yrs of age, in the '50's. Was a Good Catholic boys, 12yrs. I fought it so many times, and had no one to
    talk to. No experiences. I fell in Love and all throughout my marriage
    I went to bath houses(very little happened, except in Keywest) and after
    these many years, wish I had followed my true feelings. Wife I know
    turned totally frigid............ It is like going to the North Pole, and
    freezing my Dick Solid Forever......... Guess I messed up my own Life.

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  15. To thy own self be true.
    I think that happiness really comes after the hurdles of despair.

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  16. Oh yes nicely put anonymous at 5:08, I am just celebrating, 4 yrs and 7 months of continuous soberity, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired, but I never get tired of sucking cock... Oh well maybe SA is what I might need in the future..but one hurdle at a time....

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  17. Congrats on your sobriety. Getting sick and tired of being sick and tired, is a good motivator. Now, all we have to do is celebrate with a cock. There's one that I got in mind.

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  18. Scott,

    First of all, it's great to have you back!

    As always, you're asking the questions that many of us have wondered about and getting the responses that let us know that we aren't alone.

    Thanks again! cg

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  19. Thanks anonymous 7:07 am, but since I am not sick and tired of cock yet, I'll have a medium thickie with two olives.... shaken not stirred, please....

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  20. My first experience to satisfy my curiosity was at 18 in a adult video store at the booths with the holes in the walls. Saw a tongue, put my cock through the hole, and got a so so blow job, then returned the favor. By the way, the guy was like 25yrs older than me, ugly, and unusually skinny, with a cock that never really got hard. I knelt down to satisfy my curiosity by having another guys cock in my mouth and he came in my mouth. Long story short, it was another twenty-eight years before I was even willing to explore my curiosity again.

    am

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    1. anon 1.28pm
      I would like to know of your experience 28 years later. I have heard of a bookstore about 50 miles from where I live. Never been to one, but I'm curious. Thanks for the info. Hope to read your reply.

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    2. Started with Craigslist, then A4A. Got a chance to chat with guys before meeting them, saw pics, and knew what to expect. As for bookstore, I've got no desire to stick my cock thru a hole in a wall not knowing what is on the other side. while I'm still curious about that, I always think the hole is like a guillotine, what goes in may not come out, but that is just me. I know I'm paranoid, and there are a lot of proud cocksuckers out there, but it's not for me.

      am

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    3. am 1.36
      I too have thought of the guillotine. Kinda scary. I've never been, but have heard about them. I've heard that there are also booths where you can check someone out. I'm not very active. Sometimes, I think that I qualify for popehood!
      I guess that A4A is a site. I'll try and bring it up.
      Thanks for the info and have a great day. I have to add, thought about that hole and someone grabbing it and not letting go. What a horror story that would be.

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  21. OMG - you're back!
    Dunno what made me drop in but you're back!
    Scott - missed your posts so much!
    Keep posting Scott - we need you!
    DB in UK

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  22. He aint back. He only cums every so often. Must be a testosterone issue.

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  23. Well at least that's more than Santa Clus....

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  24. I wish that he would just pull this blog. Just get rid of it once and for all!

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    1. Anon 11:22am
      Why are you coming back. Last I heard you have a choice about reading. Anyone forcing you?

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  25. How could he NOT come bak with the way people feed his ego?

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    1. He's still a pretty decent guy for all that. Could/would the same be said about you?

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    2. As a matter Of fact, yes.

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  26. Yep, I am with anonymous at 9:38 pm, to anonymous at 11:22 am, stay the hell away, stop checking in every now and then, the ones that want Scott's blog back we remain faithful readers...

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  27. Scott is a good man. I wish he could post more often too, but he I'm sure he is busy just like everyone else. He'll be back when he can. He's worth the wait.

    Did you hear that Scott, you big gooner jock?

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  28. don't you just love these guys who have nothing better to do than spread hate?! makes you wonder what sort of pathetic lives they lead. that's it...they don't have lives. they just spew venom. methinks it's just jealousy. i know...start your own blog. be sure to let us know where we can find you. we'll be sure to return the favor.
    cheers!

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  29. march 2nd, 11:22AM -
    how do we get rid of YOU once and for all?

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  30. This blog has saved my life. I was nearly suicidal thinking I was alone, until I found Scott. Please keep posting. Don't go away.

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  31. Oh yes indeed, anonymous at March 2, 11:22 am, majority rules, stay the hell away, unless you want to enjoy some of the posts, you don't have to like every post, but we'll stick by Scott..

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  32. i used to do that ' show me yours and i'll sow mine' and the pleasure of saw your friend's cock is like...why he got a thick meat n mine is lesser than him looooolllllll

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  33. I love after my workout in the showers, and even if the guy doesn't want to "show" you his slab of beef, it's right there for everyone to see, swinging to and fro.. soaping his nice fat balls...LMAO... Sorry dudes in a horny mood this morning..

    SJ

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  34. Idk.....I gotta kinda think he's half assin it right now, and that kinda sucks guys. But I'm hoping he really will come back. At least let us know WTF is up!

    :(

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  35. Hey Scott- just yesterday my hair was getting too long and I had just taken a shower, so sure enough I managed to get my wife to cut my hair while I was naked. The entire time it was happening the only thing I could think of was, 'Wow, Scott would die to be here right now'.

    Here's thinking of you.

    Kryton21

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  36. I got a feeling that the man is going to post.
    It's the feeling of springtime that makes this feeling and horny too.

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  37. ah yes, Spring is approaching, just remember guys and some gals, it's Spring forward Fall back, so turn those clocks ahead one hour this coming Sunday Morning...Just maybe Scott will Spring "upward"....

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  38. Viagara does wonders. If he takes two, he just may be swinging from the trees. That would be a nice site to see, beautiful jewels swinging in the air. O my!

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  39. Me Tazan, you Jane, me have banana for you::::))))))

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  40. P Manning,
    Kinda figurered that he would be screwed and released. I guess that 28 million for a 36 yr old who had four neck surgeries was too much. If Manning was singled out for a deliberate injury, that person who caused the injury should have to answer for their actions.
    I hope that Mannning gets something good coming his way. He deserves it. I can't blame any of the athletes for getting as much money as they can, it is their butt that is on the line.

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  41. An open letter to our boy Scott:

    Dear Scotty,

    You haven't posted for a while. That means one of two things.

    One possibility is that you're getting lots of sex (of some kind). If that's the case, you owe it to your loyal following to share those experiences in great detail with us. After all, where did you learn those moves you're trying out? Right here from your readers!

    The other possibility is that you're not getting enough sex and you're feeling sorry for yourself. In that case, you need to get back here and throw out some "dumb jock" question or idea for everyone here to make fun of you and make you feel better. This is also where you can learn some new moves so that you can get laid.

    So I figure either way it's time for you post.

    Come on bro, you can do it.

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  42. For March 4th 2.56.
    Hang in there buddy. You are not alone. Unfortunately, there are a lot of guys out there who think that they are alone. It's tough keeping all those feelings and emotions to one's self. It's nice to have a place to go to and share.
    Take care,

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  43. on the internet today, I think it was msn. It was reported that 31 per-cent of the guys working at a place, masterbate at their place of business. Anyone want to own up to it?

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  44. Hell yes. I've done it.

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  45. Shit, I've jerked off at YOUR place

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  46. I haven't, and if I should catch any of my employees doing such on my time, their employment will come to a sudden end.

    Personal time, that's a different subject.

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    1. If I'm your employee, what I do with my 5 minute restroom break is up to me.

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    2. I'm going have to agree with Anon 5:10. Frank, if you're watching what your employees are doing in the bathroom that closely, I think you're the one whose employment is going to come to a sudden end.

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    3. Frank, dude, sounds like you have some serious sexual frustration buddy. Have you tried jacking off to relieve some of that? LOL

      Jack

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    4. It's not like anyone's cumming on your desk. Or are they?

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  47. Geez, after a good tug in the men's stall, (and I do "mess" into TP), and no one else is in there, who the hell am I huring, Not only that, after I nut I give 120% to my job, so, ahhhh, anonymous March 9 at 4:32 pm, "Lighten up" and go have a good tug....

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  48. annonomous, March 9th 4.14.
    If u did it at my place, buddy, I wasn't home. Cum back another time, when I am home we can cum together.

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    1. I left youa "present" on your pillow. Didn't you find it?

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  49. lmbao, anonymous at Mar10, 10:32am, Santa Claus would be proud of you "cumming" before Christmas.....

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  50. Unfortunately, Santa only comes once a year.
    Who needs Scott, Seems to me that we are getting along just fine! I saw a country guy today in those tan long canvas pants. Man, was that guy hot. He must have been six foot tall with long legs, and that baseball cap. He was one hot frigging dude. He was standing tall on the back of his pick-up truck. He had one beautiful ass! I'll wake up during the night thinking of him. I wish he could see what I am going to do.

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  51. Oh anonymous at May 10, 2:09 pm, you only getting coal in your stocking this coming Christmas, hell you didn't even make it past ST, Paddy's Day...

    Shame on you, Scott is the catalyst to his blog, and then the comments start flowing after that, don't you ever forget that...

    So if I was you I would apologize now, and just maybe, if your a good boy for the rest of the year, Santa will "cum" to your house and leave you a "present"....

    SJ

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